the risk

These likewise are the ones sown on stony ground who, when they hear the word, immediately receive it with gladness; and they have no root in themselves, and so endure only for a time. Afterward, when tribulation or persecution arises for the word’s sake, immediately they stumble.
Lately I have been thinking about all the people who started well in this walk with God but have since deserted the pathway to life. Ten years ago many of the people to whom we related had discovered the works and writings of John Eldredge. His message of the possibilites of a very real heart connection with God stirred our hearts. A whole new world opened before us, a world marked by adventure and life, a world so unlike the dull dutifulness of religious exercise.

And so we embarked on a new journey - pursuing God and being pursued by God. Our dissatisfaction with the emptiness of religious exercise coupled the wild and untamed call of the Holy Spirit drew us to launch into the unknown.

Unfortunately in the ensuing years, people slowly but surely left the pathway to life. One here, two there, they returned to religious exercise from which they came. I still have conversations from time to time with some of those who have returned to the place from which they came. In every conversation I notice the same thing - ta lifelessness, a puposelessness permeates their words and actions. The excitement of following a very real and upredictable God has been replaced with a heaviness that is justified as "the cross I have to bear".

Without a doubt, following Jesus will always take us to and through the cross. However, the "Jesus way" never stops with the cross, rather the cross is simply a portal to eternal life. Conversely the cross devised by human ideas never leads to anywhere but death.

Why would people leave the way of a lifegiving journey with Jesus to return to something that can offer nothing but mediocrity, unfruitfulness and death? That is the question I have mulled for the past weeks. What causes people to trade the goodness of abundant life for the dry morsels of religious duty and exercise?

I think it has to do with risk and cost. There is a very real danger in following Jesus. He requires everything - go sell what you have and come follow me. In that time of decision, suddenly the deadness of the past life seems so safe and attractive. Furthermore Jesus begins to probe into the wounds and unhealthy regions of our life. The ugliness of our wounded heart spills out. We feel needy and small. Once again we are confronted with a choice - will we open our hearts to the Healer with the scalpel or will we close our hearts so our appearance of goodness can be maintained?

The word (the logos) offends them, causing them to stumble. The same word which they received with joy now causes them to fall away.

Then Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him, “One thing you lack: Go your way, sell whatever you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, take up the cross, and follow Me.” But he was sad at this word, and went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions.